Mental health

When my mind broke my body

survived


TW (some may be adversely affected by the content (suicide/self harm) of this blog)

10 years ago an illness took me to the darkest place on earth

10 years ago I believed I would be better off dead and suicide was the only option

10 years ago my Dad answered his phone “hello sweet-heart” but a policeman had used my phone to call him, he was told his daughter had jumped off a bridge in an attempt to end her life and was lying broken on the ground

10 years ago my parents drove 30 miles, feeling numb with no idea what they were going to find at the end

10 years ago the surgeons said I should have died

10 years ago I lay broken in a hospital bed, I needed a bone graft to repair my sight, a metal fixation to prevent permanent paralysis and months of bed rest to allow my fractured legs to heal

10 years ago the psychiatrists wanted me to go straight back to the psychiatric unit
But something inside me had changed…my mind was broken, my body was broken but I realised the spirit inside me was still alive…

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I had survived when I should have died, I’d been given a second chance, my story wasn’t over…

In the last 10 years my relationship with God has deepened

In the last 10 years I’ve learnt to live with the consequences of my actions and I manage the chronic pain

In the last 10 years my family have gone above and beyond in the support they’ve given me and some amazing friends have stood by me

In the last 10 years I’ve been through more emotional pain but I’ve learnt how to cope with it, I’ve learnt that crying and being angry are important parts of life

In the last 10 years I’ve been to a therapeutic community, day care, had more hospital admissions and over 100 individual therapy sessions

In the last 10 years I’ve discovered who I am and developed a sense of identity

In the last 10 years I’ve been out of work, in voluntary work and in paid work

In the last 10 years I’ve found my soul-mate and married him

life

I have no idea what the next 10 years has in store, we may start to build a family in our own home, or these things may not be possible but whatever happens I know the person I am now is equipped to deal with life’s challenges head on!

For more information or if you need to talk to someone, please contact:

Or contact your GP and support team. Please do not suffer in silence.

Comments

John kane
12/05/2016 at 17:09

a brave and honest X-ray of a 15 year journey. Do you know the writer Malcolm Guite ?



Hannah Lindsey
12/05/2016 at 19:03

Wow, I had no idea. We all have a hidden inner strength – but some people can find theirs more easily than others. Love this blog, always read! Truly inspirational – keep walking on that path of recovery hun 😁



Catherine
12/05/2016 at 19:09

Dear Framces, I have just returned from a funeral of someone who died by his own hand. To use the words committed suicide seems wrong , as though they have done an evil thing or a crime. I suppose that is how some see it. All I can say to you is thank you for your honesty. You are an inspiration and you touch so many giving hope and guidance. Thank you for your blogs and thank God for looking after you and thank God for your knowledge of His love. Blessings to you and yours.



    12/05/2016 at 20:20

    I’m sorry you’ve been through this pain. When I went to a similar funeral I was struck by the address focused on forgiveness for it is surprising how much is needed at such a time, this helped me come to terms with the loss. Much love and prayers for you.



18/05/2016 at 11:26

You’ve definetly got a flair for writing there.
Infact, I think you just earned a fan :’).
Haha. Looking forward for more. Okay? Okay.
I write a little too. You might just wanna give it a look. :’)
https://mahekmithare.wordpress.com/



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